I really appreciate all your comments, so thank you very much for taking the time to write them.
I've decided I need space and time to think, so I'm running away back home and taking C with me. We leave tomorrow (!)
I still haven't packed, and I dread to think of the 11.5 hour flight ahead of me with a very inquisitive and restless 10 month old, but right now it seems the least of my problems.
I don't know how I'm going to make a decision. I really don't.
Part of me thinks if I wanted to give up I'd already be gone, but then I remember my plan of not making any hasty decisions, for C's sake.
I know time is supposed to heal everything, but to be honest, as time goes on the worse I feel. I think this is because whatever ounce of denial I had is fast disappearing, like being yanked out of a dream world and into reality. And also, the more I think about it, the more the enormity of the situation sinks in. It is a very, very scary place to be. Never in a million years did I think I would ever be in this situation. If you knew my husband and our relationship, neither would you.
And because you all shared your 'bottom line', it's only fair I share mine.
Cheating.
I always said I would leave immediately. No second thought. If this has taught me anything, it's never to set a bottom line. Because nothing is black and white, no, just a huge overwhelming spectrum of grey.
Sabine
xx
P.S. Theluckylife, I can't see your email address...please send xx
I've decided I need space and time to think, so I'm running away back home and taking C with me. We leave tomorrow (!)
I still haven't packed, and I dread to think of the 11.5 hour flight ahead of me with a very inquisitive and restless 10 month old, but right now it seems the least of my problems.
I don't know how I'm going to make a decision. I really don't.
Part of me thinks if I wanted to give up I'd already be gone, but then I remember my plan of not making any hasty decisions, for C's sake.
I know time is supposed to heal everything, but to be honest, as time goes on the worse I feel. I think this is because whatever ounce of denial I had is fast disappearing, like being yanked out of a dream world and into reality. And also, the more I think about it, the more the enormity of the situation sinks in. It is a very, very scary place to be. Never in a million years did I think I would ever be in this situation. If you knew my husband and our relationship, neither would you.
And because you all shared your 'bottom line', it's only fair I share mine.
Cheating.
I always said I would leave immediately. No second thought. If this has taught me anything, it's never to set a bottom line. Because nothing is black and white, no, just a huge overwhelming spectrum of grey.
Sabine
xx
P.S. Theluckylife, I can't see your email address...please send xx
