Lucky

As if in answer to my last post, about how we are on the right path - things are falling neatly into place.

I got offered a new job, a much more interesting job (slightly less money) within my company.
Today is my official last day of my current job, and I 'start' the new job on Monday.
After all the redundancy angst, I have ended up not being unemployed for even 1 day.

The best part? They have agreed a 3 month trial, and they will wait till after I get back from S.A!
So, if I don't like the role, this buys me 3 more months of job-hunting whilst in employment, and if I do like it, I would, if I need it, qualify for the most awesome maternity leave.

Also, my hubby's work have very, very graciously agreed to let him work out of the office they have in S.A. so he can join me for a whole 2 and a half weeks during IVF! I am beyond excited! I thought he would only make it for a week max.

I'm taking this all as a sign. This is meant to be. Right?

~Sabine~

P.S. Hubby is convinced we will be having twins. He constantly talks about the babies, plural. Think he knows something I don't?!

One week

This time next week, I will be in South Africa. *ONE WEEK*!!!
I am beyond excited. Yes, you read that right. I have decided to go into this thing without holding back.
I have to accept it now, we are doing this. And it's a good thing! It's a giant leap in the right direction - a baby (or two) in my arms.

I am so close now.

I am so grateful I get this chance, so, so, so grateful.
I am choosing to go into this with positivity and confidence. (please remind me of this pledge often!)

This is going to work.
This is where we are meant to, on the path we are meant to take.

Bring on the IVF! Bring on the BFP!!

~Sabine~

Man, oh, man....

These OPK's are not for the faint-hearted.
 I present to you:

The top one is yesterday's test, the bottom one is today.

The test line (left) is darker, but so is the control line!! What the heck?! Were these things made to torture me?!

I would really love to know when or if I ovulate this month, as my IVF is riding on it....

Yes, I booked my flights. Hubby's work have agreed to let him work from the South African office for 2 weeks.

It's all systems go - if only my ovaries would co-operate!

I also got offered a job today. And they will wait for me to get back in May to start. BUT it's quite a bit less money than I'm on now and way more work. I will lose the redundancy pay (which is paying for this IVF, but will gain maternity pay if I stay) What to do? Decisions, decisions... Anyone have a crystal ball I can borrow?

~Sabine~

I think I need help

I am on day 30 of my current cycle. After last months anovulatory never-ending cycle, I was sure I was in for more of the same. My C.learblue Fertility monitor mocked me for a while with 'low' readings and now has also given up hope and basically said: 'Stop peeing your money away'. Yes, it doesn't even ask me for sticks anymore.

But then, this morning, against better judgement, I peed on an OPK.

Well, blow me down with a feather, but is this positive? I think I have (finally) lost my mind. One half of the line is darker than the other so I don't know how to interpret it.
So, I am entrusting my emotions to my fabulous internet friends....what do you guys think? Positive or negative? Is it even possible to ovulate on day 31?! Also, the line didn't show up immediately, so I didn't check back for maybe 10 minutes.

(same test photographed obsessively, different angles - test line on the left)

Thanks for your help on this one, ladies!

~Sabine~

P.S. Today is a GREAT day, my brother and sil are in the midst of their first IVF, they got the call this morning, 5 of her 9 eggs have fertilised so far! Please pray for them!