Circle Game

Came across this video, and just had to share it here. Enjoy.

P.S. Thank you guys so much for your suggestions on my previous post. I am considering a special project, which I would love your feedback on, but that's a whole other post! More soon...

P.P.S. No comments on the new blog header...hate it, love it, indifferent? Don't be shy now... ;)

P.P.P.S. Hope you're all having a great weekend.

Fun (what's that?)

I did something I never do.

I got drunk.
Not very drunk. Not sick drunk. Just enough-to-be-merry-drunk.
And it was fun. And good. And I'm not advocating drinking here, but at that moment I realised that I have not been having any fun for a very long time (which if I wasn't drunk might have depressed me right there and then).

I am young, happily married, and having LOTS of sex (albeit the baby-making kind) but I am still not having much fun.

It was good to let my hair down and now I'm wondering if I can do it without the aid of alcohol...

Any suggestions oh wise blog readers?! I'm a bit rusty.

~Sabine~

Isn't it ironic, don't you think?

Day 39 of this anovulatory cycle....don't know what the heck is going on!

So, while I sit and silently beg and plead for my period to come so I can just get this cycle over with, it occurs to me - epiphany! - I have confused G-d!

All the years spent silently pleading - please g-d let me not be pregnant! (I even admit to taking the morning after pill one time).

And now, all of a sudden - please g-d let me be pregnant!

And then to make matters worse, I'm still doing it right now - 'please don't let my period come, let me be pregnant' to: 'please let my period come so that I can start the next cycle'.

This could all be my fault!
(just kidding - kind of...)

~Sabine~

Trying not to think about it...

But failing miserably.

You know how they say you should stop stressing about TTC? How? I don't get it. Am I missing something here?

How can I not be acutely aware that I didn't ovulate this month, and I am on CD36 and NO sign of my period?
How can I pretend not to notice or not to get stressed that my body is so clearly very f*cked up?!

Help me out here guys...how do I stop stressing when this is all I can think about day and night?
I'm supposed to not get stressed so I can conceive, but not conceiving is making me stressed! It's just like one of those very black comedies you see on TV! Maybe some day I will see the funny side.

Other than that, a good relaxing weekend - been doing some freelance work on the weekends to try and save up as much cash as possible.
It's starting to hit home that I will be unemployed in 7 weeks time. And I will be 30 in 6 weeks time. Wow, this is SO not how I pictured it at all. I have NEVER been unemployed in 8 years, and the market at the moment is very bad. Well, maybe it will take my mind off TTC for a while? Hey, look at me - grasping at straws!

So tell me, how do you take your minds off TTC? Please....?

~Sabine~