Thursday, 16 June 2011

Becoming a mother...

...has made me the strongest person on one hand
...and the biggest wuss on the other!

For example...

  • I can do ANYTHING with just one hand (well, most things anyway!)
  • I can do at least 3 things at once
  • I can function on no sleep (kind of)

but...

  • I can't watch adverts without crying (especially ones about children, it doesn't matter if they're happy or sad)
  • I can no longer watch documentaries about 'unusual' people as all I can think of is - that's somebody's baby - and I can't bear the pain
  • I fall to pieces when my baby has a fever (post immunisation - boo hoo)
  • I cry from just having too much love for her
  • I'm not proud to admit I usually kill spiders (they terrify me), but now I just can't - again, that's somebody's baby!

There is no point to this post. Just, I guess, what a rollercoaster ride this all is.
I have never been more exhausted, more exhilarated, more stressed, more in love.
Just too many emotions.

This parenting thing is so hard. And I can see as time goes on it just gets harder. I'm so scared and so excited. Sometimes I think, what have I got myself in for, and then in the same second, I can't wait to do it all again.

~Sabine~