After some horrible, awful, heart-wrenching blood tests a couple of weeks ago - 6 big vials from a 10 week old - seriously?!, we wait for results. They are doing some genetic tests, so myself and my husband gave blood too, and this will take a while. So we wait.
We haven't been able to do 'normal' things. Can't see friends with children. No malls. No restaurants. No shops. No crowded places.
Cabin fever has taken on a whole new meaning. C has also not had any of her immunisations.
Results in 8th of April.
C is 12 weeks old today. How did that happen? It's going way too fast, but I am loving every second. She is a great baby. A real joy. She smiles and laughs and coos all the time. She also sleeps solidly most nights from around 8.30pm - 6.30am which is absolutely amazing. I love her so much, it hurts.
And as if we don't have enough on our plates, we are also trying to decide what to do with the rest of our lives. We just feel we really need the support of family. Life in London is tough enough generally, but with a baby it's very isolating, especially if you have no support of family. We are in the process of selling our flat, so we need to decide very fast, but I am having sleepless nights, going backwards and forwards, not knowing what to do.
We have lived in London for 10 years, our entire adult lives have been here... How will we cope going back to South Africa and starting again? It's such a tough decision, and I'm finding it impossible to make.
I have a huge fear of change at the best of times and I am not a risk taker, but my heart says South Africa despite it all.
~Sabine~
We haven't been able to do 'normal' things. Can't see friends with children. No malls. No restaurants. No shops. No crowded places.
Cabin fever has taken on a whole new meaning. C has also not had any of her immunisations.
Results in 8th of April.
C is 12 weeks old today. How did that happen? It's going way too fast, but I am loving every second. She is a great baby. A real joy. She smiles and laughs and coos all the time. She also sleeps solidly most nights from around 8.30pm - 6.30am which is absolutely amazing. I love her so much, it hurts.
And as if we don't have enough on our plates, we are also trying to decide what to do with the rest of our lives. We just feel we really need the support of family. Life in London is tough enough generally, but with a baby it's very isolating, especially if you have no support of family. We are in the process of selling our flat, so we need to decide very fast, but I am having sleepless nights, going backwards and forwards, not knowing what to do.
We have lived in London for 10 years, our entire adult lives have been here... How will we cope going back to South Africa and starting again? It's such a tough decision, and I'm finding it impossible to make.
I have a huge fear of change at the best of times and I am not a risk taker, but my heart says South Africa despite it all.
~Sabine~
