Hmmm

Yes, I'm still here. And yes, I'm going to whinge again. I'm sorry, look away now if it annoys you.

I have just spent an hour googling about my brown/pink clumps in the C.rinone progesterone build up.

Basically, the build up got so bad (TMI - sorry - but if you've used this stuff, you'll know what I mean).
Anyway, it hurt so bad, even just sitting down, so I went and pulled some stuff out, and by 'some' I mean half a bath towel at least.

At first it was white and chunky, then the higher I pulled out from the pinker/browner it got.
I don't know what to think anymore. I hate being so negative. I'm trying to change it, and I've been SO good this past week (believe me), but it seems everyone I speak to is intent on telling me about the friend they had who miscarried etc etc, and I'm so nervous.

I know this is beyond my control, what will be, will be. The emotional part of me wishes I could go for a scan every week to ease my fears. But I can't.

And I am thinking every day I lucky I am to be in this situation - the outcome could've been very different. I am truly grateful, really I am.

If any of you have used the C.rinone - please tell me if you had this problem? Dr. Google gives mixed reviews. Thank you xxx

~Sabine~


P.S. I made this last week - I wasn't going to post it, but I figured I would - just in case you don't believe how happy I really am :)
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P.P.S. Oh, G-d, please let this not be the end, please let Joopy be safe and sound.