It all falls apart

Well. I never thought I would be the one to write a post like this.

Unfortunately, this isn't the 'I can't be bothered to update my blog anymore' post.
This isn't the 'I've lost interest in blogging because I'm just too busy/too tired/too happy'
How I wish it was.

No.

This is the 'my marriage is falling apart' and 'I'm struggling to keep my head above water' post.

I never thought it would happen to me, but it did. The level of betrayal, deceit, anguish and mourning are all too much to bear.

I'm not sure why I'm writing about it here. This isn't 'new baby stress'. This is a fucking catastrophe. An earthquake. A damn end of the world.

Now it's out there. I wish that helped.

P.S My baby is beautiful, gorgeous, healthy and for that I thank g-d. She makes my life worth living every single day.